Saturday, September 10, 2011
9-10-11
today was my little songbird's due date. i still miss her all the time. it's strange to think that once i was supposed to be having a baby right now. i am reminded all the time by how much better the Lord's timing and plans are than mine. i know she's doing amazing and beautiful things out there in the universe but i do sometimes still wish she could've been here with me. i hope she had time to send little squirt off with a hug when she got back, or at least a high five or secret handshake. i hope i have the ability to teach my babies about heaven and eternal families clearly and early on so they always know they have a big sister watching and helping keep them safe, cheering for them to choose the right so we can all be a family together again one day. it makes me so giddy to think that even in this lifetime if all i have are a dozen big, strapping sons i already have a sweet daughter. i feel so blessed to have known her and felt her spirit and personality when i did, it was nothing short of a blessing, something i didn't deserve but will always be so happy i had. i am not without blessings, craig and i have been so cared for in every spiritual and temporal sense. we are so in love and so happy and not at all scared or set back by the brief "loss" of our first baby. but we do miss her. i'm so glad that we'll never really lose each other because i already love my children so much that i don't think i could stand it at all. really, today is just another day in our worldly existence, we woke up like normal, we're going to work as normal, we've carried on. but to me it's still my sable's almost-birthday, and i'm so glad to know that she is loved down here and where she is now.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
iBike
once upon a time, many months ago, craig and i decided we wanted bikes more than anything. we thought this so completely that we went to walmart and bought giant, heavy, inexpensive bikes that didn't quite fit in our trunk and made us miserable. craig's was black and big and looked so fancy but it was hard to carry up 3 flights of stairs, the massive handle bars made it difficult to transport, and he hated the way it felt when he tried to ride it for reals. mine was beautiful and blue and a standard 26" women's bike, but even with the seat as low as it could go my feet couldn't touch the ground. i didn't feel entirely comfortable on a bike that i would have to throw myself off of in order to stop in an emergency traffic situation. so we called it quits, returned our bikes and kept all of our accessories [except my helmet] and dreamed of a day when the perfect bikes would find their way into our lives.
we've thought about bikes a lot. we've looked at bikes, we've envied bikes, we've blanched at the price of bikes. we've even come close to getting some "real" bikes a time or two but i insisted we pass them up. i didn't have a good reason, i just didn't feel ready to relive the stressful horror of before. and i'm glad we waited. last weekend craig and i discussed the possibility of getting used bikes that didn't need to be fixed up, paying a little more for something we could ride right away. i, for the first time, decided to do some research to find out what we wanted. and it was like the heavens opened. the answer wasn't in a used bike, it was in the RIGHT bike.
craig wants bikes so we can ride them to work if we want but even more so that HE can ride his to work when baby squirt gets here. we have one working car and no inclination of getting another until we're millionaires. i've been picturing me as a stay at home mom locked within the confines of my apartment while craig takes our car four miles to work everyday. craig had a better idea, as always, and we romanticized about him saving money and getting exercise every day by biking to work when the baby comes and leaving the car with me on normal days. the bikes end up paying for themselves in gas money eventually and we are so close to work that it feels a shame to start up a car and drive every day, especially on nice days. so, bikes cost money, but save money. we came to terms with getting what we pay for and craig has been saving up for REAL bikes ever since we took the old ones back. now we just needed to find what we wanted.
google told me everything i needed to know. i thought for the longest time i wanted a cruiser but i was always disturbed by the size and weight of cruisers and it turns out they're not really designed to go long distances with little effort. what craig and i wanted for commute and occasional leisurely riding were hybrid bikes. craig should have a performance type hybrid, a bike that takes very little effort to go long distances and works well on path and pavement. i wanted more of a comfort bike, takes a little more effort but designed to sit comfortably, not inclines or with bars up high, and i'm actually much more in favor of a bike that doesn't go careening into oblivion, like craig's bike would [does]. i like the added resistance and control and since i won't be commuting with it as often i feel it's a much more appropriate bike for a fun day ride or a trip to the library. plus comfort hybrids are way cuter, and i am vain.
we took a trip to the bike shop on wednesday. we found my bike. it's a bike with a women's frame but smaller wheels, it actually weirded the bike shop people out when they first got it in but it was PERFECT for me. the seat sits down MUCH lower than the handle bars so i can reach the ground no problem, and the frame has a fancy little downward shwoosh so my stubby legs can actually step over it.
craig bike is a super fancy, super light hybrid that makes him look so tall and makes him go so fast. he love it. he tried a comfort bike like mine and preferred the lower resistance and the thinner tires of his bike. i think we both left with our perfect bike. and a membership that gives us ten percent back in store credit of whatever we buy. cha-ching. oh, and did i mention starting the day we went in all bikes were on sale? we saved $300. let me say that again. we saved $300. perfect timing. now i just need a helmet.
[my first bike. pretty. but useless...]
we've thought about bikes a lot. we've looked at bikes, we've envied bikes, we've blanched at the price of bikes. we've even come close to getting some "real" bikes a time or two but i insisted we pass them up. i didn't have a good reason, i just didn't feel ready to relive the stressful horror of before. and i'm glad we waited. last weekend craig and i discussed the possibility of getting used bikes that didn't need to be fixed up, paying a little more for something we could ride right away. i, for the first time, decided to do some research to find out what we wanted. and it was like the heavens opened. the answer wasn't in a used bike, it was in the RIGHT bike.
craig wants bikes so we can ride them to work if we want but even more so that HE can ride his to work when baby squirt gets here. we have one working car and no inclination of getting another until we're millionaires. i've been picturing me as a stay at home mom locked within the confines of my apartment while craig takes our car four miles to work everyday. craig had a better idea, as always, and we romanticized about him saving money and getting exercise every day by biking to work when the baby comes and leaving the car with me on normal days. the bikes end up paying for themselves in gas money eventually and we are so close to work that it feels a shame to start up a car and drive every day, especially on nice days. so, bikes cost money, but save money. we came to terms with getting what we pay for and craig has been saving up for REAL bikes ever since we took the old ones back. now we just needed to find what we wanted.
google told me everything i needed to know. i thought for the longest time i wanted a cruiser but i was always disturbed by the size and weight of cruisers and it turns out they're not really designed to go long distances with little effort. what craig and i wanted for commute and occasional leisurely riding were hybrid bikes. craig should have a performance type hybrid, a bike that takes very little effort to go long distances and works well on path and pavement. i wanted more of a comfort bike, takes a little more effort but designed to sit comfortably, not inclines or with bars up high, and i'm actually much more in favor of a bike that doesn't go careening into oblivion, like craig's bike would [does]. i like the added resistance and control and since i won't be commuting with it as often i feel it's a much more appropriate bike for a fun day ride or a trip to the library. plus comfort hybrids are way cuter, and i am vain.
we took a trip to the bike shop on wednesday. we found my bike. it's a bike with a women's frame but smaller wheels, it actually weirded the bike shop people out when they first got it in but it was PERFECT for me. the seat sits down MUCH lower than the handle bars so i can reach the ground no problem, and the frame has a fancy little downward shwoosh so my stubby legs can actually step over it.
craig bike is a super fancy, super light hybrid that makes him look so tall and makes him go so fast. he love it. he tried a comfort bike like mine and preferred the lower resistance and the thinner tires of his bike. i think we both left with our perfect bike. and a membership that gives us ten percent back in store credit of whatever we buy. cha-ching. oh, and did i mention starting the day we went in all bikes were on sale? we saved $300. let me say that again. we saved $300. perfect timing. now i just need a helmet.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
baby blanket
my baby squirt already has so many baby blankets. i think i counted 13. most of them were crocheted by my grandma meyer and a few of them are old blankets of mine. i want to wrap him up in all of them all at once.
i wanted to make baby squirt a special blanket from me. hopefully i can keep it up with all my babies and they can all have special mommy blankets. i should probably learn how to knit and quilt too so that there's a little more variety between all 20 of my children's baby blankets. while i was working on this one craig asked me if i knew how to do anything other than granny squares, ha! it's all he's ever seen me do. i said yes, but nothing cooler than granny squares. maybe someday.
craig picked out the blue and the brown yarn and i love how the colors look together. once i ran out of yarn i still wanted it a little bigger so i did a fringe in a white i had in my yarn stash. you can't tell in this picture because i hid it on purpose but i was actually a little short by the end. i had about 4 more scallops to do before my yarn ran out, yikes! so close. we'll figure it out but for now let's just pretend i made the perfect baby blanket and then maybe someday i'll let you see my magical baby. deal? deal.
i wanted to make baby squirt a special blanket from me. hopefully i can keep it up with all my babies and they can all have special mommy blankets. i should probably learn how to knit and quilt too so that there's a little more variety between all 20 of my children's baby blankets. while i was working on this one craig asked me if i knew how to do anything other than granny squares, ha! it's all he's ever seen me do. i said yes, but nothing cooler than granny squares. maybe someday.
craig picked out the blue and the brown yarn and i love how the colors look together. once i ran out of yarn i still wanted it a little bigger so i did a fringe in a white i had in my yarn stash. you can't tell in this picture because i hid it on purpose but i was actually a little short by the end. i had about 4 more scallops to do before my yarn ran out, yikes! so close. we'll figure it out but for now let's just pretend i made the perfect baby blanket and then maybe someday i'll let you see my magical baby. deal? deal.
Monday, September 5, 2011
burgerville
getting burgerville walla walla sweet onion rings were on our summer bucket list. summer is running out fast, as much as i tell myself it is NOT over kids are definately back in grade school and time is running out to check summery things of our summery list. today had to happen. and it was awesome. those expensive onion rings are worth waiting all year for.
okay, so we got a little more than just the onion rings. but can you blame us? that pepper bacon cheeseburger was calling to me. i love burgerville for its localness, freshness, and sustainability. oh and their food is darn delicious and doesn't make me feel like i'm selling years off my life in order to eat it, like other speedy food burger joint.
it was a labor day well spent. mondays are our normal day off so we didn't get a three day weekend but we DID get paid for not being at work today. and later we got to play our new awesome zombie munchkins game with josh and charolet. conclusion: today was awesome.
okay, so we got a little more than just the onion rings. but can you blame us? that pepper bacon cheeseburger was calling to me. i love burgerville for its localness, freshness, and sustainability. oh and their food is darn delicious and doesn't make me feel like i'm selling years off my life in order to eat it, like other speedy food burger joint.
it was a labor day well spent. mondays are our normal day off so we didn't get a three day weekend but we DID get paid for not being at work today. and later we got to play our new awesome zombie munchkins game with josh and charolet. conclusion: today was awesome.
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