Thursday, June 30, 2011

hair and steak, but not togther

okay, would you please do me a favor and ignore the fact that it looks like i'm wearing the same top today as i was wearing merely a few days ago in my "it's summertime" post? those pictures were really from the first day of summer, which was slightly longer than a couple days ago. and heck, i love this top. i bought it like three years ago for three dollars and never got around to wearing it until now. plus, it hides my love handles and my growing baby bump oh so well, so it deserve some love.

i'm one of those people who takes iphone mirror pics now. but not out of vanity, for good reason! i'm entering a summer iphone mirror picture contest. just kidding. i'm just vain. blogging makes me vain. but i do also want you guys to have something to remember how cute i used to be when i'm someday shaped like the Pillsbury dough boy with enormous ankles and three chins. it'll happen! you just wait. and when it does, you'll be glad to have these vain iphone pictures to remember the good old days, when you could read my blog without your eyes bleeding.

but really, i'm beyond excited for a ginormous baby bump =] it makes me ridiculously giddy. GIDDY.

so this one time last november, i cut off all my hair. and it was the worst mistake of my life on the worst day of my life. i went from this:

[where i looked like a lion and it was glorious, which was not the tune i was singing at the time, but if i had only known....]

to this:

and my soul died a little. the lady shaved off the bottom half of the back of my head. i had stubble. stubble, people.

i've been trimming it up myself off and on ever since, i won't trust anyone else near it. and i actually feel like it's been growing out really fast. i still can't pull it all up without a thousand bobby pins, but today i managed braid and PIGTAILS! oh pigtails. i missed you.

in other news, [STEAK news, if you will], john and sheri had us over for a barbecue on sunday and the monstrous appetite that is squirt + shilah was so happy about it. craig and i got to see craig's step brother trevor and his girlfriend and their three kids, who i've heard so much about [i've even helped john and sheri make tie-dye shirts for them] but now finally got to meet in person! it was a perfect summer day with family. and food. and baby talk.

sheri sent us home with some barbecue leftovers, which was great because craig and i had some hotdog and hamburger buns at home to use up. but even better than hotdogs or hamburgers was the divine gift of steak they let us have. steak. steak steak steak. all i can think about now is STEAK! i seriously just reach in the fridge, grab one, and eat it cold with my bare hands. it's so perfect. squirt must need the iron or the protein or SOMETHING, but whatever it is he makes me down that steak like there's no tomorrow. i even go a little feral and my vision turns a little red and i do a few crazy things while i'm nomming down on the steak. i won't share all of them with you, it's too frightening, but this is something i never thought i'd say that if i don't tell you about i might think it never happened:

"i got steak on the wall...."

it happened. and now you know to never come between me and my steak. i might get some of YOU on the wall. sorry, hunger makes me aggressive.


but seriously, does it look like i could ever hurt anyone? [yet...]

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

rollo cookies

last week charlotte pinned a recipe for rollo cookies on pinterest. and i asked her if i could steal it. she said i could. she's a doll.

yesterday, i made rollo cookies for FHE. the were a big hit.

today, i made the rest of the batch for craig to take to work to share. the were a scary big hit.

one adult man had five.

and my baking ego gets a huge boost.

they really are ridiculously easy to make. i didn't even follow the cookie recipe, i just used my easy peasy version and added rollos. the trick is all in the freezing. you freeze the rollos for 2 hours before rolling cookie dough around them, and then for 20 more minutes with the cookies dough before they go into the oven for ten minutes. they're a gooey dream. even if you don't like rollos [craig doesn't] you're love these cookies [he did].

if i was a good blogger i'd link you back to the original blog post for the rollo cookies. but i don't have the energy. someone boost my blogging ego so i'll feel more capable. kthanks =]

Monday, June 27, 2011

it's summertime

insagram love. bear with me. "earlybird," my favorite filter, is just so summer-esque.

i'm a little too excited for summer, it's making me feel rebellious. i just want to be wearing dresses and skirts and lace tights or shorts and tees for every waking moment of this fabulous season. so i of course wish i worked someplace that let me wear dresses or skirts or shorts or tights. seriously bumming on my summer style. they'll see though, once i'm as wide around as i am tall i'm wearing big, fatty maternity dresses and streeeatchy pants to work every day. and they can just try to stop me. i plan on having the mood swings of a dragon. they'll be sorry.

summer time plus: craig and i have been eating otter pop knock off for days, son. and we love them.

i need to come up with some summer goals. you know me, i love lists. they make everything better.

babybaby squirt is doing great, he's making me crave red meat like a crazy dinosaur, but i love him for it. craig and i got to visit and hold some sweet babies this last week, and it's making us so excited to be parents.

i look like a mom already, right? sure, more like a teen mom, but a mom nevertheless.


Friday, June 24, 2011

good day

1. we took bruce in to get his nails clipped today, which is always my least favorite, he won't let me do it and he throws the biggest fit when we take him to petsmart [you know, making vets bleed, needing sleeping gas, pooping EVERYWHERE, that sort of thing]. but today he was so good, he didn't need to be sedated! first time ever! we were so proud. haha i can't believe we have to drug such a cute tiny creature to clip his darn nails. i told harvey if he ever grows nails i'm disowning him. he just made fish faces at me. but he knows.

2. so far i have not had any morning sickness at all. once i threw up after taking prenatals on an empty stomach but that'll happen to anyone i hear. sometimes when i smell fast foods or greasy foods or just things that i know aren't good for me anyway i'll fell all blech, like my body knows i don't need that shizz one bit.

2.5 craig doesn't have any morning sickness either! yayay! we're three healthy wills.

3. i'm not eating ice cream or drinking soda for the duration of this pregnancy. it's hard, but only because craig is going to get another 4.0 this quarter and that's supposed to mean Coldstone... but healthy eating goals help me feel better about what little squirt is eating and getting to grow up big and strong. i'm trying to cut out candy too, but those peanut mnms call to me like sirens of the sea. but darn it, i'm a will, i need to use some will power.

4. i AM craving meat. lots of meat. lots of red, fatty meat. last pregnancy all i craved was pizza and tuna. this meat thing works out much better for me, especially since craig hates tuna so we're much happier with this arrangement. plus it's super convenient right now. summer = barbecues. heck yeah. keep it coming. someone get this german girl more bratwurst. i'm talking to you, costco. cough em up. squirt needs his protein.

5. although i get super sleepy sometimes and feel like i'm moving through molasses and some days all i want to do is nap [last monday i woke up and did chores for an hour, then went back to bed. so bad.] i still have so much motivation to make cool baby things! And buy cool pregnant things and organize the baby room and getting everything ready. you know, cause 8 months is barely enough time to get anything done, i have to do it right freaking now. nesting is so bomb. i think i'd sleep all day if it weren't for those bird like urges. my brittney and i are planning baby crafting get togethers. eek!

6. i had these strange urges to spend money today and craig indulged me, because he's a doll. it started with a pair of blowfish shoes.

60 dollars shoes for 23 dollars? Yeah, i'll bite.

7. craig also let me get this lovely product that i am so excited to use. i just discovered this company and they are just so sweet and kind and precious and all natural and i just can't get enough of them! and i haven't even gotten my package yet, haha. they have things for pregnancy and post baby, and even a sweet, heart melting packages of healing things for ladies who lost babies. i'm really happy to support them and i hope in turn they help minimize the massive stretch marks i'm doomed to receive [pretty please?]

 8. craig and i are enjoying lots of fun movie nights. we usually go for tv shows on netflix in 20 minute increments, which is great since we work so late and it's easier to commit to that than a 2 hour something. but i actually have so loved watching more movies lately. true grit? supper bomb. last night we watched val kilmer be batman for a while [swoon] and soon netflix is going to send us "conviction." i'm so enjoying summer movie nights with my handsome. 

9. have you guys heard of pinterest? it's my new favorite thing. it took me a couple days to figure it out but once i did i have enjoyed it immensely.  i use it like a wish list, all my boards are categories and then i "pin" clothes or products or projects i want to do someday. i keep them there so i don't forget them [when you pin things it links them back to where you found them.] when i'm ready to buy or make or bake something i've pinned they're just right there, waiting for me. it's how i kept tabs on that stretch oil until i was ready for it. i'm not followed nor do i follow very much on pinterest, but seeing my friend charlotte's pins every day is a treat. they are the prettiest inspirations. 

10. thursday is jamba juice day. this always makes me so excited. i usually go for chocolate or peanut butter mood and sometimes pomegranate pick me up [always with a shot of energy or daily vitamins], but today my jamba was all strawberry lemonade goodness. here squirt, have a healthy summer treat! 

ten little things, one big, good day. 

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

excitement + explanation = i hate math, but i think the answer is "babies"

it's probably not very noticeable, but it's true: we're super darn crazy excited.

surprised? yep, us too. this has been one big month of mysteries and vague explanations. now that we have some bit of reassurance with what's going to happen, i feel like i can help clear things up.

baby jelly bean little squirt the first: he is about seven weeks along, about the size of the littlest jelly bean ever, with a heartbeat and everything. i've been completely mum this whole time, and it has been HARD. craig and i decided to wait until we had an ultrasound, heard a heartbeat, and some kind of reassurance before shouting it from the rooftops. they let me come in at seven weeks instead of ten so i could keep my sanity [so nice!] and i was so nervous to death the entire time. with little Sable we didn't go in until ten weeks and she had been gone for around 4 weeks and didn't have a heartbeat at all. we hadn't told a lot of people, family and sweet friends and darling churchy people. and it wasn't so much an issue to me that these people, who i KNEW loved me, knew about it and had to be told when she was gone. as hard as it was to talk about it over and over sometimes, i always felt loved and not judged.

now, i did have an issue with everyone who found out at work. which was completely insane to me, some kind of phenomenon of nature. we told our supervisors because they needed an explanation for why craig was throwing up and going home sick all the time [uhm, well you see sir, he's pregnant.] and we let a couple other people know when lying just became too awkward, neither of whom i imagined gossiping about it at the time. and it spread like wildfire. people i did know where coming up to me telling me that people i did NOT know and had NEVER talked to in my life had told them i was pregnant and not to tell because it was a secret. whhhhhaaat? it wasn't a huge biggie because i WAS excited to be pregnant, but it became an issue when i wasn't pregnant anymore and then all of the sudden no one was gossiping anymore. if it didn't come from our mouths no one knew. and honestly, when i was so sad and miserable the last thing i wanted to do was tell 4 different people/strangers every day that my daughter went home every time they asked "how's the baby??" or yelled at me for lifting something heavy because it's bad for the baby. that happened.

that's my rant about being careful who you tell and when you tell about baby bean. we're still being wary about work people finding out [i know some of them will, the internet is funny like that] but i'm just so excited out of my mind that i want all my family and friends to know. and you!

pregnancy: alright, you know me. or you know a little about me. but the most obvious thing about me could possibly be that i want a baby more than anything. that being said, this wasn't planned. this was the most exciting surprise ever.

when we got pregnant with Sable, we weren't trying. i still didn't know anything about ovulating and timing and all of that good stuff, we had just talked about how much we didn't mind anymore if we had a baby when we were still poor and unprepared [originally we were going to wait three years. HA!] we were married in august and this conversation happened in october. so a couple months after we were married we stopped not trying to be pregnant and slowly, taking our time, tried to figure out what happens next. i've never been on birth control in all my life and those months before and after marriage of me trying to figure out what was right and safe were so stressful [one very religious doctor told us anything but condoms were murder. that guy might be a jerk. i listened to him anyway.] i thought that once we quit with contraceptives it was going to take months and months to figure out how it worked and what kind of help i needed to get pregnant, i was convinced in my head it wouldn't happen easily, almost an expect the worst tactic to keep me sane if the worst did happen.

not paying attention/not knowing what we were doing seemed to be our perfect tactic, because Sable was well on her way in january. this time around i was certain would be much harder. my baby-house [that's what i call the uterus. see, i was made to be a mom] had gone through heck for a long time and i thought it was going to take a few months of recovery before we could think about trying again. and once again i was convinced this time i would need some help.

and this totally cracks me up now. i was terrified, i felt like i was a morgue inside and had to be quarantined before i was safe to let another baby in there. we were being careful and taking steps to make sure i did not get pregnant until it was "safe."

but apparently an entire month of the only not "evil" contraceptive = baby.

not trying or thinking it can happen = baby.

maybe not being entirely prepared and being completely unaware = baby.

praying and hoping that it would happen = baby.

it's not so much about science, or even magic although that seems more likely. it's faith and being able to say "your timing, not mine" whether it's later or much sooner than what you had planned.

doctor: my first pregnancy happened entirely at Kaiser which is a completely different world than all other hospitals. i had to relearn everything they taught we when we got our brand new insurance. no one was making decisions for me. we had to pick a hospital and a doctor all by ourselves. and kind of rushed too, since we were afraid the same thing would happen with this baby and we didn't want it to drag on and on again so we wanted to be in almost as soon as a heartbeat was possible. i wasn't nearly smooth enough to ask friends for baby doctor advice without being totally obvious, so i was super stressed and clueless. craig found my doctor for me and picked our hospital and i couldn't be happier with how it turned out. they had me in at less than four weeks for blood tests and the general rundown, and right back in yesterday to checked for the first prenatal ultrasound.

i really was so afraid this last month. i felt so helpless being out here, having almost no control on if things were going well in there, no way to keep him if he had to leave. talking to him every day, having craig say good morning and goodnight, and just making sure he knew we loved him were some of the things we made ourselves do to keep hope. we didn't want to just close our eyes and wait until it was over, even though that seemed safer. for however long he was here we wanted him to feel wanted.

i was shaking when we were in the doctor's office, i'm always such a mess of nerves. our doctor was the sweetest thing, and didn't drag it out. and soon as the ultrasound was going she said he looked great! he had a heartbeat, i could see it fluttering. i could hear it. she said it sounded so good. she said everything looked great. i probably cried and cried. craig might have cried more but if i told you that he might be embarrassed. we're really so happy right now. we're finally letting ourselves be excited, really truly bursting out of our brains excited.

weight loss: remember when i was losing weight like crazy and blogging all about it? and then i suddenly stopped? that's because i had mysteriously stopped losing weight. i was still counting calories and exercising, but it wasn't going anywhere anymore. so then i had all these plans to eat raw and do some crazy cleanses and beat my body into shape, all of which were going to happen as soon as we returned from cannon beach. well all of cannon beach i was prepared and expecting something that was supposed to happen and never did. so when we got home we bought another set of pregnancy tests [those things are way too expensive.] and like i said, it was a complete shock, it seemed almost impossible after all the things i've read about getting pregnant and how to do it and then not doing any of it "right." but he was there, in his cozy baby-house, and much too tiny fragile for diets and cleanses and rigorous exercises. so all that weight loss blogging will have to wait until i have a giant load of baby weight to lose ;]

i'm so excited for this journey. if all goes as hoped, our lives will never be the same again. they'll be completely different and constantly changing. i don't want to forget or lose any of it, so i'll be drawing, journaling, photographing, and blogging every step of the way. now that the secret is out vague and scarce blogging is hopefully over [it was just so hard to talk about ANYTHING we were doing without giving out hints, haha]. i'm happy to have someplace to share all of this. bear with me, maybe after blogging about it for so long we'll all get an actual baby out of the deal ;]

little Squirt says he'd be happy to oblige.


that little heartbeat was the most beautiful thing i've ever heard.

hey there, little Squirt. I hope you stay, stay, stay stay stay <3

Monday, June 20, 2011

my 20 before 20 goals

i'm embarking on an adventure. i've made a 20 before 20 list. a list of goals i hope, dream, long to accomplish before i turn 20. here we go.

you've probably seen posts like this floating around blog land. i'm not sure if it's a link up or not but i've decided to make and pursue a list of my own. i'm VERRRRY excited about, i'm such a sucker for lists, I enjoy things/chores/activities SO much better if i'm checking them off a list. since i really only have until january before i turn 20 i'm going easy on myself for a few of them, but some of them are pretty intense. i'm glad i'll be able the share my progress and achievements here, it makes me feel like i have something holding me to my goals. if it works out maybe i'll do this for every birthday, until i'm 99 and trying to accomplish 100 things in one year! not really. but it could happen. by then we'll be blogging by thought on a screen attached to the inside of our eyes.

[my brother llerrad gave me this picture so i'd know what i'd look like as a monster. now that's a secret goal of mine i don't tell people about.]

1. i want to make a website this year. craig is taking a lot of web classes and i'm working on being better at graphic designing. we're hoping to completely set up a website for me this year that i can use when i start my business from home. opening an etsy shop is part of this dream too, but there are rules on etsy and i really don't want to always be limited on what i can do.

2. i want to open an etsy shop this year! this means a LOT of little goals happening behind the scenes, like making all the glorious creations i plan on listing in my etsy shop. it's an important step to some big dreams.

3. i really need to learn how to use my sewing machine. my mom gave me some sort of adorable, cute, old something sewing machine and after a lifetime of sewing solely and slowly by hand i really want to enter the big leagues.

4. it's therapeutic for me to work on my someday baby nursery off and on but after adding little pieces occasionally i really want to take the time to buckle down and make it everything i'm dreaming it'll be while i still have the time and the physical capability.

5. hang up art around our home. hang. it. up. i have a HUGE pile of things that need to be frames and hung. i need to get to it. soon.

6. make curtains. i really don't want to do this by hand. so goal #3 better happen first.

7. i want to write at least one song AND the music to go with it, on at least two instruments.

8. i've taken years of music classes and none of them taught me how to read music. it's time. get out of here, tabulator!

9. beat 3 video games. this is calling to a side of me you don't really know. the kind that misses gaming and is using this opportunity to make excuses to find time to play them. i am not ashamed.

10. write a book. no joke. illustrated and everything. i can do it. you watch.

11. haha, okay, i already own 17 working dresses and i'm mending/modifying two more [by hand, of course] so it's really not that crazy of a goal. i just want a lot of dresses, and i put a number on it for my husband's sake. this probably isn't his favorite of my goals.

12. we are the worse newlyweds ever. if we don't pump out those thank you cards by at least the one year mark i'm going to be so ashamed.

13. compile a book of poetry. this is actually a goal i've left hanging for a couple years. i want to get to it before i run out of baby-less time, which i hopefully don't have much of left.

14. make a new friend. this one might be silly. it might be easy. it might be hard. i just want to make sure i take the time to get to know new people and not be a secluded jerk.

15. make a new cupcake recipe every month. i think cupcakes are my forte. i made an mnm cupcake recipe in march, i think. last month i made chocolate cake with peanut butter frosting and cookies inside. this month was german chocolate cupcakes with hershey kisses inside. next month is hopefully going to be pink lemonade cupcakes.

16. i am obsessed with throw pillows and constantly at war with how expensive they are. i want to acquire 3 sets of throw pillows to put my soul at ease. acquire by any means necessary...

17. i love portland saturday market and i really want to support another artist by finally finding and buying the perfect thing. this also gives me an excuse to go to the saturday market a lot. i'm so sneaky.

18. spend a weekend in seattle. sounds ambitious, right? sounds possible to me. and why not?

19. draw a picture every day. i've actually been almost keeping up with this the whole year. i do it as my form of journaling. i want to keep doing, and keep up with it better, and do more quality work.

20. be a mommy. i want to be a mom in some form by the time i turn 20. whether it's very pregnant, newly pregnant, or with a new born it's something i just can't stand waiting for much longer. i'm almost 20! time is a-wasting! ;]

Sunday, June 19, 2011

the greatest sacrifice

I think the one thing I can't ever forget and I always remember is how he didn't have to be there, but he was, oh he was, he was, he was again, he was some more, and he still is.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

print practicing

i'm still trying

1. graduation present for sister catie
2. mothers day present for my mommy
3. thank you for my sister, drashel
4. mothers day present for craig's momma

someday, i'm going to do amazing things like this:


it's my very most dream. 

Monday, June 13, 2011

beauty behold

i haven't been blogging very much lately but I promise you aren't missing much of anything. lots of things are right on the verge of happening [so excited for this summer, you have no idea], but all the days until then are slow. not slow enough to get all the things done i want to though. some days i just feel like i'm moving in molasses. some days i complete everything on my to-do list but those things barely catch me up, and i never quite get ahead. but i have big big BIG plans for this season and the rest of this year. we'll make it happen.

yesterday craig and i were paying super close attention in church. i promise. until the speaker, a sweet, awesome, old man, recited The Jabberwocky. from the pulpit. and related it to the gospel with an eternal perspective. i almost died of happiness. so then of course we were distracted by our excitement and love for good poetry, and we started doodling. when craig and i draw sometimes we take turns, he'll do a piece, i'll do a piece, and we build off of each other making something that always turns out intriguing and magnificent, only because HE had a part in it, of course. well we included some words in the picture, and the picture turned into a poem.

i used to write poetry allll the time, back in my broken hearted, emo, teenage years. i loved it. i had a poetry teacher who never really was my teacher who told me i wrote like sylvia plath [he was being nice, i didn't]. but it was all very...angsty and venting and not very unique [what artsy, inner tormented teen ISN'T a poet?] and i learned that it must have been a phase and not exactly talent when i met craig and i became happy all the time and i couldn't write anymore. i still consider myself artistic and poetic but what i was good at was expressing negative emotions, and i just don't have those anymore.

i still managed to write a few good pieces in the last couple years but i don't write EVERY day anymore. i really want to get into writing again, and try things that are more honest and relate-able, and writing with craig has so far been the most rewarding. we've written a couple pieces like this, taking turns, the last one i wanted to share with you a couple months ago but he said he wanted to post it on his blog before i did and he never got around to it. what a slacker.

i hope to do this more. i want to ultimately write songs with craig, put music to them, play all the instruments, become a band famous only to all those hipsters who hate famous bands, and be almost rich and tour all the time. that's my ultimate goal, anyway. i dream and i dream and i dream.

the bolder type is craig, the not so bolder type is me.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Green peppers can be little punks

So I haven't really been mentioning my whole calorie counting weight loss things lately. That's probably because it basically stopped working. I got down to 120 one day and then fluctuated back and forth between that and 123. I don't know where I am now, I quit looking. Probably 125 again. I'm still counting calories and paying attention to what I eat and doing the whole yoga thing. But I dunno, it's like m body figured out what I was trying to do to it and has been desperately trying to hang on to my weight/gross fat the last couple weeks. Jerks.

I'm probably going to have to give in and do some real exercise at some point. It just sounds so....terrible. Haha, tennis rocks and yoga helps with lots of things but I'm really bad at keeping things in some sort of rutine. So right now I'm just going to make another extreme dieting step. Craig and I have decided to eat raw for 3 weeks. It'll actually end up being two weeks because the rules this week are that we can eat anything in the house [we have non-raw perishables that we can't let go to waste, that's why the upcoming pictures have bread in them] but we can only buy raw things until we're done. Fruits, veggies, nuts, smoothies, and...I don't know what else. We'll figure it out. I'm hoping to save money rather than spend more. I'm hoping to feel a little detoxed and stronger by the end of it. I'm hoping after all this green food and wheat grassy stuff I'll crave all the bad stuff less and have more energy so that counting calories and exercising won't seem so miserable. Lucky for me that I LOVE fruits and veggies, so I can't really lose I guess. Well I CAN lose some weight, that would be ideal...

I made some fancy sammiches for lunch the past couple days [they were fancy because they had avocados in them].

And just for the record, I love green peppers, but I HATE when they do this. It makes me feel like I'm eating some kind of disgusting, creeper mutant. Don't tell Craig I tried to feed him this. He'll be sad.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Memorial Day Weekend

Okay, I HAVE to blog about our amazing, pictureful weekend before I get so daunted that I never get around to it ever. So we're just going to power speed through some of this. And I'll also probably ramble about some of it too...

First of all, Craig and I work Tue-Sat every week. That means that this was NOT a three day weekend for us. This is where you should feel sorry for us. But after making dinner for the family Sunday and packing a few camping/road trip basics we were off late that night for the beach. Starting with Cannon Beach. This is where you should feel jealous of us.

It started with a lot of driving and listening to Eisley and We Were Promised Jetpacks [Craig obviously let me pick, all he choses is Taking Back Sunday lately]. It's silly but driving with Craig is sometimes the best part of a road trip for me. So although I can't really share anything about the first few hours except for how we drove a lot it was still so great. For the rest of the night we ate snacks, drove around, tried to find a public restroom that wasn't locked [no good] and napped in various places in the middle of the night. It was an adventure.

In Cannon Beach we parked next to this fancy residential area and accessed the was probably private access. It WAS private access. We probably shouldn't have been there. But we were! So there. This is about two in the morning. Craig used his phone to light our way to the water and then we stopped and sat down and I told him to turn his light off. It was one of my favorite experiences ever. It was very dark, we could see town lights in the distance, but the only other thing we could see was the ocean moving. We couldn't REALLY see it but we saw it moving back and forth. And it was so LOUD, the sound of the ocean is deafening when you're not distracted by anything else. I'm terrified of the ocean but also really impressed by it and I was in such awe with how incredible it really is. Plus I spooked myself out by imagining walking sea creatures and the mermaids from Pirates 4....

Alright, this is turning into all rambling.

After napping again and waking up at 5:45 we accessed PUBLIC access to Cannon Beach. We went to the tide pools and it was amazing! I touched so many things. I wanted to take home shells or sand dollars or something but everything we found was ALIVE so we put it all back. It was so warm the whole time, I was totally surprised. We were actually sweating at the beach in the middle of the night and we were walking in and out of the water at six in the morning no problem. That is NOT how the Oregon Coast is. I was so excited.


Then we went to Pig'N Pancake for breakfast because it was open. It seemed frightening at first but it was really delicious! I had strawberry crepes and Craig had piggies in blankets, pan cakes wrapped around yummy sausages. I had hot cocoa too, which was SO tasty. And photogenic.

Then we changed our soaking socks in the car, I switched up my wrinkly outfit for something cuter, and we drove once again. We went to Seaside but we took our time doing it, circling golf courses and looking at pretty things. The last time I was at Seaside it was CROWDED. A lot. And this was Memorial Day weekend but at nine in the morning and even later there weren't a lot of people around. We parked right next to the beach area, grabbed our sleeping bags, and laid on the sand forever. We drew in the sand and talked and added more baby names to our huge collection. I was all for sleeping again but Craig shook me out of it and we went around to all the Seaside shops. We spent A LOT of time at an arcade...yep...

Craig is good at everything, but I have the most faith in the jackpot type games. Do you see why? My baby is a jackpot fiend.

We got candy and parachute army men and a giant pen and a glow in the dark dinosaur model thing. I'm sure the value of all those things totally equaled the 12 dollars we spent to get the tickets for them. Just kidding, but it was a ton of fun. It made me wish we had babies to take there.

After we tore up Seaside we went back to Cannon Beach to eat at Mo's Chowder House. This is always the highlight of my life. My mom went to Mo's all the time when she was a teen, and she told me when I moved her I just had to find it if it was still around. There are like 6 locations now! All going strong. And they really do have the BEST clam chowder.

I got fish tacos and Craig had a burger/sammich filled with deep fried shrimp. We could've died happy.

Craig was sweet and tool a bunch of pictures of my beach outfit. My favorite parts were the socks he got me and my "summer shoes!" He went to Target by himself a couple weeks ago and came back with those babies for nine dollars. He said I needed summer shoes. How cute is he? They were the last pair [he actually took the display pair] and they fit perfectly.

[I do NOT remember dancing at any point...but it looks like I did]. 

After we got home we ate a TON more food [how???] hung out, watched movies, and just had hours to chill. I even took ANOTHER nap and STILL had so much time to either be lazy or busy! It's was a great weekend. I can't wait to do it again NEXT two day holiday weekend ;]